I've always been a bit closed off from the world in general. For a part of my life, I was constantly afraid of being judged for my opinions, my writing, my style...pretty much everything that I believed embodied me. This shyness wasn't only one that existed in day to day physical interaction, but also surprisingly on the Internet as well. That may appear to be unusual since people are usually more courageous over the Internet. But interaction with people is the same to me, no matter the medium.
How did I end up blogging or even being interested in blogging. It was like an online diary. I was aware that people could read it, but it never occurred to me that people could read it. It was just a way for me to record my feelings and develop my writing skills.
Somewhere along the line, the paranoia crept in. Call it the realization that my posts were being read by complete strangers AND my friends. The panic was surreal. I completely stopped blogging. I would visit my old blog and feel like I gave up on something so important to me. Ofcourse there were days I woke up feeling totally stupid for my anxieties, but other times, it was challenging.
BUT!
I've decided to step out of the realms of my comfort. Push myself to be a little #Shameless like Shameless Maya on YouTube. Fear always tries to confine you to you these walls you have created. But after a while, you realize you're in your own way of success. All you have to do is tell fear step aside. It's always going to be nagging at you, some days it may overwhelm you, but you keep on fighting the good fight!
I mean, once I'm doing something I love, it cannot possibly be that bad.
